We accept the love we think we deserve.

我们接受自己认为配得上的爱。

A few months ago, I tried to date with a girl whose appearence is very attractive for me.

But she was reluctant to agree with my invitation, and finally she refused my love.

It was a very horrible experience and I was not so courageous to accpet her rejection.

At that moment, I was almost devoured by disappointments and anger, indeed, I felt a little angry then.

I thought indignantly that I am a good man, maybe, at least a lot of married woman ever told me that I was a good man, why did she turn me down?

Several days later, I felt relieved. There must be some reasons for her rejeciton. 

Maybe I am not as good as I thought, and my personalities may be not fascinating for her.

If I can check where the problems are, and improve my own conditions, I believe one day I can date and marry with the gril of my destiny.

It‘s good o set limits for oneself, but there comes a moment when we must destroy what we have constructed.

为自己设限是不错，不过有时候我们必须打破自己一手建立的一切。

I have set some limits and goals for myself, though I walk very slow, I think I never deviate from the original plan.

But now it seems I am facing a tough question that I can‘t make a easy decision to solve it.

My family members suggested me that I should go back to Xi‘an, and then I will live a happier and wealthier life.

My colleagues suggested me that I should stay here to make our business more flourishing.

I don‘t think I ever even understand what a choice really was, or why they should be difficult, now, I know a little.

Should I destroy all that I have constructed?

February 19 2017 Week 8 Sunday